The essay is about the author's personal awareness and journey towards self-improvement. The author was initially confused and overwhelmed by their MBA studies and considered withdrawing from the program. However, after discussions with their Course Leader and senior staff at work, the author gained support and persevered. The author's self-awareness increased when they started the module "Developing Effectiveness in Leadership and Management". The author discusses the importance of self-understanding for personal development and spiritual growth. They also analyze their strengths and weaknesses in emotional intelligence based on survey outcomes from Emotional Intelligence Self-Assessment Tool and Daniel Goleman's EQ Test. The author scored high in social awareness and self-awareness skills but lacked in self-management quality.